Dear Diary**

friday

2012-02-03T20:07:00.001+08:00

TGIF! love friday! school over no tt n time for relax n recharge

even sat n sun im bz goin tt

n friday always gt noodles n tong shui~~ ^^

fri night always eat until full

n tis yr bio n chem experiment lessons both on fri

no need bring heavy books n can learn less n relax tis day

my mood so good on fri

tats y its important for me to keep tis day tt-free

today's tong shui~green bean soup~

now everyday all about studies

whenever or wherever or watever i do i can only think of tat

took the advice of tat acs motivation bahasa guru

- dont live for 1+1/2 years -

and its only early feb,

hv to continue this book-zombie-not-living lifestyle for another 11 months

dunno can manage to continue anot...

ytd my bday i felt quite good, btr than recent years

gt fb hv such big difference, 1st time so many ppl wish me happy birthday~~

gt quite a lot of presents oso

even ching yaw mun gv me

i did.not.expect.that... thx ching~

junhoe's bday present for me~~

such a cute mirror~^^~

:'(

2011-12-30T17:58:00.000+08:00

dad promised me tat university will be much relaxed compared to form6, form6 is the toughest part. i really hope he's right...

never tot tat i wud be so worked up over my studies
especially tat lower6 final exam, i almost broke down n gave up
the stress is overwhelming, tat exam almost everyday i call junhoe n cry, so goddamn depressed

teachers flying away with all the chapters n me struggling to keep up
the class always seem to keep up reli well, which i dun get...
and when my study mood absent it adds stress some more, thinking bout everyone studying their ass off
n then theres an issue with a fren n its over studies which got me super annoyed n angry n disappointed which adds stress

results came out and i almost couldn't stay in this class
tat day after results posted on fb i locked myself in room n cry n cry

the stress is so big
even now when i hv difficulties in studies i get frustrated n feel tears come out agn
so easy for me to cry now
so much i dunno...

no mood for xmas/newyear countdown/cny
even during europe trip i cud only picture everyone studying while i sightsee

5 more days and hv to go bck school
not looking forward to it...

sexy guy*

2011-07-24T18:41:00.003+08:00

my lil convo with phaikxia juz now reminded me to post this:

ytd was sport's day

px n i pretty much juz spent the whole day looking at boys ><

i was waiting for da 拔河, wanna see tat big guy in action

forgot if i've mentioned him

he's upper 6, n i noticed his nice big muscular hands during 1m1s when he's wearing a blue singlet

(my sam tet frens shud know who im talking bout)

it was da last event =.=

px's fren came along n told us his name: A. L.

八公... =.=....

somehow i dint wanna know his name

during da 拔河:

tat was the first time in my sec school life tat ive seen this event

i was mesmerized by da way he struggled n kicked n pulled

it kept replaying in my head

it was very very attractive n masculine, dint matter if he slipped and lost da first place

(it seemed tat he took it kinda hard)

phaik xia's comment: ur a lil bit crazy bout muscles =_=

then i tot of da word to describe him at that moment

he's sexy!

he's da first guy until now who i'd describe like tat

his display of masculinity n manness n determination n his struggle (n also his big muscular body built) appear super sexy to me!

px: agreed with me, very good-looking side of him

looking at him like tat, i was turned on by him at that moment...

i'll be damned if junhoe knows bout this ><

px said it sounds like im betraying sum1...

i have no feelings whatsoever for him

those are all for jh

juz really like to see his body~

ive told jun hoe bout him n his rope pulling thing

he got hurt n i felt really bad... :( i'm sorry...

i'll try not to look at him again

RE phaikxia: yes it's possible if he stops wearing that blue singlet n passing by our class

i hate kai yang

2011-07-20T09:50:00.001+08:00

Omg... super dislike my brother... worst enemy ever...

phaikxia felt hurt...

2011-07-07T17:41:00.000+08:00

phaikxia recently have her eyes set on a guy

he's really quite good looking~~

even b4 she said it i wanted to know him oso XP~

n she had told us that she planned to tell him herself that he is very 帅

XDD i couldn't wait~~~!

but then a little something happened...

a couple of days ago phaikxia n yungxin were having their seni club meeting

n i waited outside the classroom for them coz v were suppose to eat lunch together

n i juz stood ouside waiting n walking about for almost half an hour =.=

then the guy px like walked up n ask wat meeting it is inside n wat im doing out here

i ans him n he left

i tot px saw him but apparently she dint

later he was passing by again n told me to go in to sit n said bye

he was nice really~

when their meeting was over i was pondering whether anot to tell phaikxia he came by

n decided that if i dint tell her she'd get angry, so i told her

her reaction:

(pushed me) 啊~~~~~~！！！淑怡阿！！！走开阿！我不要看到你了阿！(pushed me again, hit me, 啊~~！！！loudly again, push again, hit me again

though i couldn't help laughing when she was like tat, it's so cute~~

she really was hurt...

i keep telling her it was nothing

i juz looked weird standing outside

but she dint listen

she's ok
juz tat when the topic bout him comes out or if he passes by she acts abnormally
crazy like tat

but it seemed tat this lil incident made her cancel her intentions of telling him he's good-looking... :(
o.... i was so looking forward to seeing it happen...

* * * * *

today recess she wanted to c her guy

walked around oso dint c him

then v stood outside da classroom

n suddenly yungxin said 他来着

n they both went very still n i said where, n turn around n c him walking juz behind me

i quickly turned back to them n v went very silent while he passed by

n chengyee n mingkin were laughing in the classroom(they were aware of this too) while px's head keep following his direction

PX AH!!! that was so obvious n embarassing!!

it was so obvious to him wat v were doing!!

it made us seem like stalkers! Omg!

i felt real silly...

not gonna do tat again

px, ur gonna hv to find someone else to go peek on him with u next time =.=...

first almost-real proposal i've seen

2011-07-02T19:33:00.000+08:00

im the kinda person that's afraid of marriages n things like tat

but i juz saw a video of Mike's proposal to XiaXue

and when she was waiting with her frens for the movie to start, the screen showed Mike's face
and she was like, Wat the **** ?!
and he walked down to her place and proposed to her

when she said yes it wasnt like those romantic movie-dreamlike moments,
it was awkward
n her reply was an awkward, short, low-pitched yes

when she said yes
i feel my eyes watery n i have an urge to cry~! no idea wat was with me..~

silly..

if anyone can understand... :

2011-07-01T22:40:00.001+08:00

my period juz came yesterday

and my PMS was acting up quite badly...

and so my emotions were unstable...

..if this explains anything to anyone...

eyes feel tired...

2011-06-30T20:48:00.000+08:00

i think its bcoz i haven't been very careful with my contacts n i overlooked the importance of maintaining their cleanliness, since quite some time now my eyes have felt very tired n they are blood-shot

everyday now i see my eyes r red n bloodshot even if i dun wear my contacts..

junhoe helped me look up the net

i think it's mostly bcoz of bacterial infection...

i really need to work harder to keep my eyes n contacts clean...

they really feel so tired..

today went with cheng yee to parade buy 发圈

coz almost all of mine have become very loose dy..

RM26.40, my 收获：

cheng yee bought one only.

to chengyee: thx~ i dun like to go alone..

this sat have to go to da 1 murid 1 sukan =_=

cant wake up late... so tired la ...

i bought a pair of shoes tat were quite high n it costs RM35 only n i was very happy with it

but i only used 2 times when one of the strips juz fell off =.=

i was in jusco tat time

n i feel so 余..

cant walk coz the strip will be dangling about

so i went McD buy smtg to eat until it was time to go home

Ish! quite angry, wat kinda quality is tat?? i only wore it the second time!

another reminder for me not to buy things tat r too cheap...

to someone

2011-06-30T20:23:00.000+08:00

please dont contact me again.

kinda miss pui khee~~

2011-06-25T19:00:00.000+08:00

i like ave marian girls

made frens with quite a few of them since coming to sam tet

they're nice n friendly n smile back at me *thinking of the contrast with dinosaur =.=*

chee yan from L6B2 told me that their class is left with 21 students only

so if goh yi wai n chow jun tong dun hurry up they might be placed in that class

i'm having my bio tuition at Sri kota now but im thinking of looking for a new one

although his tuition classes are funny n entertaining i feel that i haven't learned anything from him

but till now there's no other bio tt centres tat i've heard are good yet.. :S

still looking...

i miss pui khee

she n i not so close in poi lam

juz tat v know each other from primary school n r in good terms with each other

but then very few of her frens study form6 with her

so being in same class with her (in acs) we become closer

she's funny n entertaining n being with her can make me feel good

it's easy to laugh around her ~ **

it'd be good if she transfer to sam tet also..~

she'd be a good entertainer for me XD

have to work hard

2011-06-23T20:05:00.000+08:00

my blogging time has to be restricted to once a week starting now
coz of all the homework (school n tt) n i always cant finish them
have to do revision some more
im lucky to b in same class with phaikxia n yungxin now
but i dunwan to be separated from them next year, so hv to work hard to keep up

since school start i've been eating more than usual for my breakfast
listening n studying takes up so much of my energy that i get tired easily n look for things to eat
hope i dun get fat coz of this ><

second week in sam tet still havent got to meet any new frens
try hard to know more of them ><
dunwan to feel so lonely anymore~~

saw some primary school frens here,
cheah boh siang, henry ting, tham yee ling n another girl
still hoping to meet lim xiu ji, i owe him a big apology...

continue do my maths now... dun get how to do =.=

first day in sam tet

2011-06-13T17:56:00.000+08:00

i'm in same class with phaikxia n yung xin! ^^

very happy bout that~~

6RB1, i'm not suppose to be in tat class but it has da most place coz a lot of students left

the asst monitor in our class very friendly n nice, i like her

she even gave us her no so v cud look for her if v hv any ques

there's only 22 students in our class, n 4 will b leaving so tat leaves 18

and most of da reference books they use not same as acs or the ones i buy, so hv to buy again T.T

hv to buy tie also, acs all canot use dy

such a waste...

during recess we 3 went to look for pn ng, the one in charge of us 6 forms

she looked at my results, 8As, mostly A minus n bio B, and the class im assigned to

and she frowned a little n looked up at me

"you're not suppose to be here you know (in the first class she meant), you dont qualify, you're only here bcoz ...(dint listen)"

ya i know i dont belong in that class : (
its reserved for all As n 9As, super hardworking n smart students
but i dint like it when she said it like tat...

i like their canteen! ^^
got keropok lekor n lots of choices~
and got vitagen n HiLo chocolate milk ~^^~ wee~~
gonna get fat there

the muet here...
pn susila in acs so much better
like n miss her class ><
i learn so much from her class than i can here

a few teachers n students look at us and asked y we wanna transfer here, acs not good meh??
their expressions were kinda demanding, i dint ans them
wei, v sangat susah nak transfer here la, be more welcoming la

gt msg from mingkin
he's coming to sam tet tmr!
haha! congrats mingkin!

transfer succeed!!

2011-06-10T19:36:00.000+08:00

bought this pair at times square

very comfortable, i like it~~

in the morning i gt a call from yung xin telling me that she got her transfer n told me to go jpp apply

when i heard that i cepat cepat get ready n my dad drove me there

i was so excited

now phaik xia n yung xin got the transfer dy

when we went there the clerk checked my form

my hopes were quite high since yungxin got it, i tot i could too

but then the clerk came and told me n my dad to go ppd

she says they're in charge of this

and my heart sunk...

yx went ppd b4.. they dint help at all, juz told her to wait...

so juz b4 returning the pelawat card n leaving the building i called yungxin again

she was a bit surprised that i couldn't get it

she told me not to go ppd (they wont help) and told me to go back n speak to encik dunno-wat-name

so we went back again, asked for that encik and that encik reluctantly helped us.... (u cud see he'd rather not be bothered...)

so he helped us and ask us to wait for the clerk to type the letter

while waiting in the room, dinosaur n a guy came in

she was surprised to see me n i smiled at her

and she juz looked away =__= same treatment...

she asked me a couple of questions

she dint bring along her transfer form or ic or anything

the guy with her asked my dad some ques and then they talk to the clerk and they went away

the guy was certainly more polite than her =.=

i got the letter, so happy~~ ^^

after we got da letter v went sam tet

a teacher there told me to come register myself at the office b4 7.25am monday

when i asked her if it was possible that me n my frens cud be in the same class she shaked her head

she said it depends on our results n whether the class full anot...

: (

yung xin got 10A's.. phaikxia got 9A's..

i got 8A's but mostly A-...

i dunwan to be separated from them....

really really really hope not...

hope v 3 got the same class...

YUNG XIN!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH~~~~!!!!

mailbox kosong..

2011-06-04T01:22:00.000+08:00

today check mailbox... nothing

the muet presentation i havent even start
bcoz i see phaikxia transfer dy
i keep thinking i'll get the letter by this holiday too
dun need to do presentation
so until now oso havent start...

long long long time dint go pasar malam dy
saw and bought these 2 hair pins for rm2.50
very cute ^^

today go rachelle house
suppose to discuss bout grandpa's birthday celebration
but v start talking very late
they're trying to make it so big n eventful
all pro active teenagers
but im such a passive person...
dun wan to take part in their performances......
i prefer doing backstage work,
invisible from others' sight

hehe, juz now phaikxia view my blog see her name so many times so syok~ XD
then she call me tell me bout smiling with a cute boy XDD

phaikxia transfer succeed!!

2011-06-02T22:51:00.000+08:00

received a call from phaik xia b4 going for muet tt
she got her letter and succeeded in transferring to sam tet!!!
she'll be going straight to sam tet when school starts
and i got really anxious
how come i haven't got my letter???
and what if mine's a rejection?? Really really really hope not ><

rushed out to check my mailbox, nothing T_T
mr lau couldn't help us last time....
but i think px got help appealing from her dad's fren
see tmr got anot
have to check mailbox everyday now

wanna get my letter fast >< !

mask

2011-06-01T22:58:00.001+08:00

a couple of days ago i tried putting on those facial beauty mask for the first time
yes, i'm 18 and this is the first time i put on mask myself~
coz i realized that a lot of ppl are doing it, even the boys~
and some of them expressed surprise when they found out i hv never done this b4
and that made me wanna try it out
coz they say that it keeps the face moisturized and nice n helps in whitening~

i bought my first mask at a random store in parade, a bit less than 5 ringgit
tore the packet, put the mask on my face, and wait for 20 minutes
it felt really wet... and i was wearing my specs over it
i looked so silly~~
i did feel moisturized after taking it off~
(there're still quite some amount of those liquidy stuff left on the mask, are we supposed to throw them away?? seems kinda like a waste~)

so yesterday at jusco when we went to guardian to buy some things,
i saw a lot of 我的美丽日记 mask boxes stacking up
i've seen their advertisement b4 in magazines and their packaging and design looks nice and it made me wanna try them out
there was a sale n it was RM40 for a box(10 pieces)
4 ringgit for 1 piece, it was reasonable price~
so i took one box and put it on the counter (dad looked funny when he saw me do tat XP)
this is the Bulgarian white rose mask tat i took yesterday:

next to it is biore's pore pack

sis's fren recommend it to her and she rec it to me

for removing blackheads on the nose~

and v got 10ringgit voucher but only valid for 7 days! :(

so today i was passing by bercham's guardian n tot to use the vouchers

n i saw another 我的美丽日记 brand mask products

and they were packaged so cute and nicely and i hv da vouchers and then i cannot忍

and i bought a 40ringgit package one...

here it is:

我的美丽日记 sweet teatime mini set~

contents:

1 vanilla souffle face scrub

1 strawberry yogurt amino acid cleanser

1 chocolate truffle mask (very cute)

1 earl grey tea & macaron mask

ya i know its unnecessary~
but the packaging is so nice and cute~
and the price is reasonable~
...and ya.. i guess i hv prob when it comes to shopping and buying cute stuff

poor yung xin..

2011-05-27T20:29:00.000+08:00

tomorrow start holiday d so today no studying mood
good thing the teachers dint teach much oso~~
maths tt i dint even concentrate or bother to listen to wat the teacher was saying
juz thinking bout goin home to sleep~~

after holidays kye yuin wont be coming back
she'll be off to the maktab perguruan
hopefully we'll get our transfer letters just after the holidays too,
and hopefully we succeed in transferring...

during our muet discussion,
i was Shocked to find out that kye yuin supports da prostitution activity 0.0|||
could not believe it and i dont get it!
kye yuin!! Why??!!
you are fine if your future husband says,
"honey, im goin to da 妓女院 , be back soon, bye~" ?
= =|||...
dun get it...

yung xin told us that da school office ppl lost her transfer form but found it back i think..
and the form was signed 'tidak sokong' from the pengetua
maybe its bcoz she got 10A's and the pengetua dunwan her to leave..
pn susila told her nvm,
if da PPD ppl lulus her transfer then it doesn't matter so much whether the pengetua sokong anot
hope she's right...

proud of 6RE

2011-05-26T23:20:00.001+08:00

there's a girl from mgs in our class that px n i really dislike
dunno her name so call her dinosaur
px came up with it coz she's so big n tall
she very~~~~ sombong ! X(
i've been nothing but nice to her and she always return it with an expression that looks like,
"ok, wateva, u cn go now"
px thinks da same
v dun like her
really sangat sombong and so unfriendly

today morning celebrate teacher's day
was walking n sitting around while everyone was surrounding the performers
and i saw jun hoe's ex standing right in front of me, her back to me
and my mood was disrupted
she's so tall and thin/slim and so actively involved in sports
and i cant help thinking that standing next to her i feel like a pig
then i dunwan to see anymore, walk away
walk until dunno where, saw her sitting, so i continue walking... = =

today welcoming lower 6 celebration
our class gt the best for performance ^^
kinda proud of it considering we only had 2 to 3 days for all da acting n singing n dancing n staying back
mingkin is main actor n kokleong is第三者 XD
sonia, da actress very cute when dancing la~~ haha

my 减肥 plan starts now!
in da mood d~~
coz everyday hv to wear school uniform so i know wat shape i'm in

dunwan stay back..

2011-05-24T19:02:00.001+08:00

our class bz preparing for da performance for thursday
some singing some dancing
pui khee n i are in da stage management team
nothing to do one XP
phaikxia yungxin n kyeyuin all voluntary signed up for dancing
phaikxia n kyeyuin so funny when they dance
funny but cute~ XD

today hv to stay bck school for practise
hv to go buy colour paper so take da chance to go out makan
me, pui khee, yi wai, jun tong, kai yuan go oldtown kopitiam there
no place park n i tot, park at da side for a while no police will come la
n after eat come out see my car got parking ticket... ++
that's 2 tickets 2 days in a row... T_T
n this one 40/50 ringgit T_T
total RM80.................................
dun let my dad know... feel sangat guilty...

haiz... tmr n thu hv to stay back again
i dunwan ah...

ytd join mon de kc leong chem tt
i joined in late so dunno wat they were talking bout...
saw henry ting n voon qin en n another old classmate there
henry ting feels very man d XD

today chan kam loon bday~~

thx dad!

2011-05-22T22:46:00.000+08:00

Oh i LUV my DAD~~!!

dad came home today from shanghai

see wat he bought for me~~~ ^^

mom dont use this kinda stuff so it all goes to me~~~ ^^

Thx dad!

nice day~~

2011-05-20T22:01:00.001+08:00

went to school today n found out yi wai was in acs 0.0
i was very surprised.. i tot she'd be in college
she was friendly n nice greeting me

then kye yuin told me she'd been accepted to maktab perguruan n will b taking off at 20 may 0.0
wow, i dun even know wat that is, did she applied for that??
i used to think it was a place to train teachers...

then during recess went to buy the school tie n badge
while walking there px told me that it seemed like a long time i was gone (2 days) (^^)
haha, these are da comments tat i like a lot~~
tie rm16... so expensive...

maths teacher mr chin i think, comment about women,
saying they're all so scared of their husbands having another home
chuckling while saying it with an air of somewat arrogance ==
stupid idiot
if ur wife hv men all around her see u scared anot
she's only so obviously worried coz she's a women n always worry bout all kinds of unnecessary stuff
ish, dislike him already

then, pak tuo.
(~^^~)
W0nDerfULL 35 minutes~~~
haven't felt this happy n blushy for quite a long while d~~

when i went for my maths tuition it was still early
jalan jalan for a while
walked into mr ang, my maths tt teacher n a man who helps run da tt i think
they were chatting, which was a fresh sight to me coz during tt mr ang always seem so emotionless n monotone n quiet kind of person
tat man asked me smtg in cantonese
i juz smiled n nod n showed them my mentos, both of them smiled
another fresh sight

then tt
when tt almost tiba masa habis mr ang went row by row see v need any help anot
when he reached me ask i ok anot, i shaked my head n nod n shaked again
he 傻傻的look at me n shake his head like mine n 傻傻的break a smile say, tat means... ok la?
and i couldn't help smiling widely
when he walked away, i was thinking like,
omg! hahaha! my tt teacher is sooo cute~~!!
i like him~

bored

2011-05-19T20:04:00.000+08:00

absent frm school again
drank the eu-yan-seng-like thing n ate panadol.

i dont even care bout da homeworks i've missed anymore

acs quite boring really...
nothing happening and nothing to look forward to

i think tmr i'll b well enough to go to school
see wat i've missed

hv to catch up...

2011-05-18T15:24:00.000+08:00

woke up 5am and my throat was sore and pain n i was dizzy
took me an hour to decide that im not well enough to drive or focus on school studies
i was sure that the teachers wudnt teach so much
sms px that im not well, ll b absent

then i slept until 12.30
was glad i dint go to school, i wouldn't hv been able to concentrate anyway
px replied my msg saying that the teachers taught a lot today... :(

i dislike it when im left behind in my studies, coz it's hard to catch up and i dunno wat i've missed

still hv to do MUET's show n tell tmr...
according to px some were really good n tat made me nervous coz my talking bout lip balms is boring...
i dont really hv anything to talk bout them..
she said chem teacher taught a lot today n gave exercises..
there's also homework for maths n preparation for bio n tugasan for PA
:( ...
great..

so happy u all late ^^

2011-05-17T18:17:00.000+08:00

throat feeling sore now..

last sat went michael angelo's with px they all, coz peiling's goin off to utar d
i was so~~~ glad they were late coz while waiting for them,
kye yuin n i were looking at a boutique and the models' dressings n i saw 1 that was really cute n i went in to try and it fitted!!!! ^^!!
i was soooo~~~~~~ happy!!!!

there're seldom dresses to suit me, coz i look fat in almost all of them
last year b4 grad night i've went to A LOT of boutiques and tried on A LOT of dresses and none of them seem to fit or look nice on me and i got real sad and cried for a whole week...

this one's my first dress( excluding grad night one)
costs RM65 after discount
i simply love it ^^~~~

bacon & eggs pizza v had at michael angelo's

for MUET lessons tmr v hv to do show n tell

v hv to show the class a possession of ours n talk bout it for 2 minutes

i was going to talk bout my purse but now i think im changing it to my lip balm

bought the pink/white one ytd, nice strawberry smell~~

first week of school

2011-05-15T22:00:00.001+08:00

first 2 days i went to acs my heart was beating so fast n i cant think straight n i feel so scared n uneasy ><
i always hv this prob when i go to a new school
at least i dint cry like in primary school

the first few days of orientation was really boring
my class is 6RE
still dunno how to go to my class ==
ah king was elected asst monitor XD

there's an indian girl, skin is fair one and is really pretty, she's in lower 6 like us
i've been noticing her since the first day of school
she's very pretty~~ i like her~~

i tot tat at acs, a boys' school, there'd b nice-body-guys
but there were none...
ish, poi lam guys better

the school canteen....
takde jual keropok lekor...
food sold there isn't as nice as in poi lam's
dun like it there..

i'm still waiting for my transfer
tats why im reluctant to buy the books and files they ask us to...

acs isn't bad
the muet class here is good
and i like pn susila devi
and i can practise my english here
but i hope they hurry up my transfer to sam tet

start tuition d~

2011-05-07T17:57:00.001+08:00

My piggy bank~~ put my extra shillings here~~

start my tuition this week, but still not sure which one's da best, keep looking..

when i went to first institute for maths ytd i met ming kin n choon kit n eng sing n wai shan
i was kinda surprised that eng sing n wai shan wud b in form6
and i never felt it b4 but after seeing n talking to them for a while i find that i miss them~~

juz now bio tt in sri kota, met with mingkin n ah king n tong kokleong n da other one forget his name
first time i tt bio, lol this teacher is funny, n da aircond cold enough~~

engsing they all thinking of taking muet in silibin, i'm still thinking whether to join them anot...

so starts my form6 life~~~

剪了刘海。。。

2011-05-05T11:29:00.000+08:00

第一次剪刘海，昨天到samwave去剪，想换个发型。
第一次剪刘海所以我叫她剪斜的，怎知她剪到齐的给我。。。

我样子感觉。。。很奇怪。。。
戴上眼镜后。。更奇怪。。。

不习惯这样子，也不习惯有东西挡在额头那边
还有必须要时不时梳它，不然会乱掉
天气稍微热点或者做了点工额头就一直流汗，有刘海挡着它很麻烦叻。。

开学了朋友见到我不懂会给什么反应~~ ><...
先给px 和jh看看他们讲什么~~

Tuition classes

2011-05-01T11:48:00.000+08:00

to my form6 frens, here are some tuition classes that i found:

Source from my cousin:

Maths - Mr Ang 012-5056609
              [ First Institute ]
              Upper floor of kimbali, Lucky Hotel 对面那条路
              Fri....2.30 - 5.30 or Sat....1.00 - 4.00

Chem - Mr Lam 012-5021051
             [ AAA Tuition Centre ]
             Near MGS there, Jalan Kampar i think
             Tue....3.30 - 5.30 or Thu, same time

Bio    - Mr Khor, dun hv his no..
            休罗街，在一间药材店和零食批发店的楼上
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Source from Eric:

Chem & Phy - [ Omega Tuition Centre]
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Source from Kwan MingKin:

Maths - Mr Goh 016-5326778
              [ Kinta Tuition Centre]
             Lucky Hotel 隔壁第三楼
             Mon....4.00 start or Fri, same time

Chem - [ Institute Yeoh] 05-2544441

Pengajian am - [ Angkasa TT Centre] 05-2411043

Muet - [ ILTI] 05-2553067 (request for miss mindy)
             or
             Silibin there, top of domino pizza

i apologize if there are any mistakes bout the info above

and if any of u have any more info about other tuition classes pls share with me, TQ~~**

get ready 4 school

2011-04-29T22:21:00.001+08:00

ytd newspaper wrote that the name list for form6 will come out 2/5, v'll hv to go online to print it out, school starts at 9/5
so i start buying things to get ready for school

went to yik foong coz jh told me to go there to get a bag and to do my uniform
i've never been to that place b4 so its quite scary with those ppl lookng at me n that scary old man staring at me

i went to master's to do my uniform, jh went with me, the guy there scared me when he said he's never done form6 uniform b4 n i was looking at jh thinking, wat???! why did u bring me here?? n i kept pinching him coz i dunno if i can trust the guy to do my uniform

total is RM210 coz i asked him to do 2 skirts n 2 white shirts.
i was hoping that by tailor-making the white shirts i could choose better cloth so that it'd be more comfortable n so i dun hv to wear a silly singlet
coz its so hot here n i dun wanna wear an extra clothing
unfortunately, he only has one kind of cloth n he cant guarantee that it'd be thick enough to not see through it...
still hoping here~~

then went to buy a bag then returned home

i broke smtg expensive...

2011-04-24T21:25:00.001+08:00

i juz found out that i accidentally broke kaiye's new RM400++ 电脑词典 and i feel terrible right now

he's always leaving his bag n books n everything lying around in the living room or anyplace else, all my siblings are like that, n they dont listen to us when v tell them not to and they leave me n mom to clean up for them

there were times when i got fed up n juz took all their things n threw it into their rooms to let them tidy up themselves
and it seems that i accidentally broke tat 电脑词典which was in his bag by doing that....

i dint know!! its was a bag! there were only suppose to be crumpled books there, how was i suppose to know that expensive stuff were in that bag??!

i took out my savings n gave kaiye 450 to buy a new one
i was upset n angry coz the fault was mine again for breaking another one of dad's expensive things
i wasn't too happy either for taking that much money out of my savings for this

i am so not looking forward to dad coming back home....

jet li

2011-04-22T21:14:00.001+08:00

there was a small bird found in our house today
it was so cute and had a really long beak an it seemed that it couldn't fly
i tried to catch it but accidentally hold on to it a little to hard that two of its tail feathers got plucked off...
it hid under the couch and wouldn't come out

at that time flying made me tot of a jet
and immediately this image came into my mind

i'll name him Jet Li!

when we came back from lunch he wasnt uner the couch anymore
and i was like, jet li不见了!!

we found him in our backyard and yen caught him
he was so cute in my palm and i kissed his beak (n got scolded by mom for tat == )

Jet li, isnt he cute~~

dad told us to release him at the hill behind our house, that way the cat wont get it
and there were a few times we tried to take care of birds who were unable to fly
with the result that they all died the next day

it was under the sun that i get to study him and found that he was green and black in colour
he's so cute

by evening when i walked up there, just to test my luck, jet li was gone already.

aunt got robbed

2011-04-21T20:31:00.000+08:00

juz got the news that my aunt and cousin got tied up and robbed last night
by 5 ppl i heard
omg, that was scary
it was a relieve no one got hurt
i mean, some psychos wud rape or even kill!!

i have to admit i never took mom n dad seriously when they said to take care of the house and myself
they've mentioned quite a number of times about cases like this but i dint really care
i've always tot that those who got robbed are juz really unlucky ppl,
that we wouldn't get rob coz ppl are mostly nice
and even if there were burglars i always tot that they'd get scared when they heard noises and run away while they can and our family wud still be in one piece
i'd never tot that they'd be so bold as to tie them up!!
omg thank goodness they dint do anything else to my aunt and cousin

i have to start to take this kinda thing seriously
robberies suddenly seem scary

fei po

2011-04-19T16:13:00.000+08:00

:(
getting fatter n fatter everyday
i'm now almost 5kg heavier than my regular weight (which is still above the recommended weight according to my height)
and for a lazy and anti-sweating and food-Loving girl like me,
do u know how hard it is to cut down those weight n slim down??
NOT EASY ><

i'm out of shape already
dont dare to wear body-fitting clothes
my whole face become rounder also
aiyo... school's gonna start soon
and i still haven't the motivation to start losing weight

oh i hate my lack of determination!

Does this mean i cant prevent cervix cancer??? T.T

2011-04-15T00:00:00.002+08:00

went to gov clinic ytd
main purpose is to get more info bout the jap for cervix cancer
and i wanted to take that chance to meet with jh a while
coz i'm pretty sure none of my relatives wud go to gov clinic

when i'm there i was like,
omg where am i suppose to go?? which one's da clinic?? so many buildings who am i gonna ask??
and i called jh tell him to hurry here coz i dunno where to go and wat to do
then i found da info counter and asked him who to refer to for vaccination for cervix cancer
he dint und the word vaccination and i dunno other words for it and he tot that i had cervix cancer ==
he asked me to go i-dunno-where and i juz went as he said and it lead me to the pharmacy
and there i waited for jh

he came an he helped me ask bout that jap
he can communicate with malays(well.. ppl at that matter) so much better than me
then we found out that we hv to go to da greentown clinic

when we reached, the nurse there told me that there r no japs for us
i asked again an she said that there are no japs for that kind there
the only japs are for form1 girls in school...
if i wan it i shud go to private clinic...

????!!! What does she mean there are no japs???!!
and i've went to the private ones, and they told me to go to gov to take it!!
and how come Only the form1 gets to have them??
and how come i cant even though i'm willing to pay hundreds for them to stab a needle in me???!
thats not fair! and it makes no sense at all >

now what?? i really wanna prevent cervix cancer, i dun wanna hv that kinda cancer...

I DUN WAN CERVIX CANCER!!!!! T.T............

after that i got thirsty and we went to buy 冰沙to eat

when i got home it was raining heavily

jh and i were texting
he said my jeans make my butt look nice and sexy
well at least that lightened me up :)

so 矛盾

2011-04-12T16:22:00.000+08:00

i hv a terrible and queer temper
and a habit of always thinking bout problems tat i can never solve
and getting all worried and worked out bout those tons of problems
which i always allow to affect my mood

i have questions which i want answers to
i want ppl to give me a truthful answer yet i dont wana hear the truth the truth is ugly...
when they tell them to me n even though i know its true i will:

1. ask many other ppl to give me diff ans so i cud block out the truth n think of the possibilities of the lies being true

2. twist their answers in my mind to make it seem as close as the things i wanna hear

YET

when some ppl say things that corresponds to what i wanna hear and believe
i get suspicious and question if they're telling the truth
i argue and debate with them

ya, so 矛盾 right?
i pun tak boleh tahan myself

well my no 1 victim is junhoe
he has to always give me ans to my thousands of ques and almost always get a scolding by me
he has to put up with my tempers and tantrums and he doesn't even know what they're for
i know i've hurt him a lot of times but he doesn't say anything bout it
he is so 无辜...

chase Maid Sama!!

2011-04-03T15:16:00.000+08:00

i almost made a day without sleeping last night, almost.
slept at 7 smtg am~
juz wasn't tired

i remembered there was an anime series i saw once that was quite funny and i liked it coz it was like a romantic comedy~~ kinda like a fantasy romance comedy for girls like myself XP~~

Maid Sama

so i went youtube and start watching the series from episode 1
watched the series the whole night until morning

i loved this kinda series ^^
i feel so silly and happy last night
hugging my bolster with my blanket around me and giggling throughout the series~~~
so silly~
i feel like a 13-year-old dreaming bout fantasies rather than an 18year old, lol
feel so girly~~

to my girl friends who still like to fantasise silly-ly and like romance comedies,
i recommend Maid Sama~
not bad larh~~

pandan kaya

2011-03-31T22:44:00.001+08:00

my phone rosak d... not yet buy new one...

today went gramps' house to learn how to do pandan kaya.
it's actually very simple
the hard part is i hv to stir the mixture under the heat for 1 hour 15 minutes non-stop, so da kaya texture wud be smooth

i dunno wat phone to choose
now they're mostly touch screens and they're expensiv
ytd i tried asking for sony's c901 but they topped selling it a year ago
intro me touch screens
i dun wan expensiv phones coz i cant bear the burden of taking responsibility of it
i'm careless, really very careless
i've dropped all my phones on the floor countless of times
2 of my previous phones were soaked in water
that's when i start buying cheap phones

recently mom n dad n i are chasing the 三国series
wow if dad had bought this like 2 years b4, those 名句wud hv made a lot more sense to me
刘备, the good guy in this series, i dont really hv a good impression of him.
his baby son escaped death and he threw him on the ground
when his scond wife died he immediately fell in love with an 18 year old (30 years age gap, disgusting)

lost

2011-03-31T01:55:00.000+08:00

wow long time since i updated my blog.

my phone has prob now looking for a new phone, jh n i can only communicate through mail...

since the day i got my results i feel like a lost.
there're so much things i desire to do yet i dont know wat to do
so much things i wan that cud leave me with no free time yet day by day i let time fly away
i juz feel such a lost and insecure
i need guidance

hang in there.

2011-02-22T00:49:00.000+08:00

i pity my bro.. nobody knows this, but i pity him far more than when i get angry at him.

this time, its bcoz of maths.
he's not good at maths, his maths results were never satisfying, he doesn't think that maths is fun or anything.
he hadn't done his basics well since primary school, he never took seriously maths when he started secondary school.
he's juz a lazy and playful, happy-go-lucky kinda guy.
even when we warned him like, a thousand times, he never did anything, he dint knew how it'd affect himself until now.

he's form5 now, and finally he started becoming aware of how his results will affect his future.
he hadn't done much in form4, now it all comes to this year, he has to chase all the form4 and form5 syllabus and get his basics well all in one year.
maths, add maths, bio, phy, moral, bc.
i honestly dont think he'll make it.

i was teaching him add maths juz now. in the end he got angry and frustrated and said he gave up coz he dint get it.
i dint show it perhaps bcoz i was numb of this feeling for him, but i was frustrated.
the chapter we're doing now, he gets it!!
but the thing about him that failed us both juz now(and every single time), his Basics.
he couldn't rmb how to do simple fractions multiplying, he cant get the cancelling term thing between an equal sign and a multiply sign. he cant get the Basics!!!
well i suppose that's wat u get when u try to stuff in about 8 years and more of maths into a couple of times practice.

his awareness came a bit too late
now he has the heart to do well in his exams but apparently that's not enough
i pity him. he was naive b4, perhaps he dint see this coming, and we cant very well blame him for that
i mean, how was a child,who went to school to play, suppose to know that everything he learns at that moment wud crucially affect his performance in the future??

i really do feel sorry for him..
its not fair for him..

kaiye got a valentine

2011-02-16T17:34:00.002+08:00

i walked into kaiye in the study room.

i dint expect him to be there, it was so quiet

i was surprised to see him there and he was surprised as well

and i saw that he was holding a card, and beside him was a paper holder with a heart shaped in the middle of it

i asked him playfully if it was a valentine's card, but he said it wasn't, that it was juz an early birthday gift from his friend.

i dint buy it, wat with the heart shape thing and valentine's day and his birthday is on the end of march

i dint show it however, i juz looked around and then walked away.

some girl gave kaiye a valentine's card

it shouldn't be surprising, all of us knew that he's quite good-looking(if he slept early and dint have 2 eyebags he'd be better-looking), we're juz waiting for him to grow into a good-looking man now

but i dont feel good about this

we dont really care if he's 12 years old

he's our baby brother

i dont want him to grow up

i wished that he was forever a little boy

heck, i started complaining about this when he turned 9

i can't picture him next year, in a secondary school, fancying or chasing another girl (which in our family is forbidden until we go university)

i dont like the idea about him starting to date at an early age

i'm terribly worried about this, as well as his mistakes-to-be

but who am i to judge him when i've done it myself

dont grow up so soon..

we'll miss you terribly much...

first time i prepare lunch

2011-02-15T23:11:00.000+08:00

my valentine's card from jun hoe~~

he made it himself~~ ^^

if u cant see properly, its a couple kissing with hearts surrounding them~~

today mom told me last minute that i'm in charge of preparing lunch, which gave me no time to prepare my ingredients and i had to use substitutes.

i did a baked chicken and a cauliflower side dish and hard-boiled eggs.

my baked chicken~~

i'm happy with my chicken^^

though i'm not sure whether the end results shud have my crushed crackers sogged with butter anot

its suppose to be baked for an hour but dad was impatient and i tot, wat the heck, and cut down the last 5 minutes

but still i'm satisfied^^

dad said its good (and get this, he rarely says anything house-cooked is good)

looking forward to tomoro~

i get to get my car back

valentine's day

2011-02-15T00:18:00.000+08:00

valentine's day, and i'm spending it with my family ==.... actually i spend it every year with my family, i'm not goin to risk their suspicion
but sick of this
wanna spend my valentine's with junhoe
and i wanna get excited and dress myself up for our date~~~

junhoe made me a valentine's card~~^^
it seems that he also taught his frens how to make it for their gf~~ XD

today looking for place to have dinner
everywhere there are couples
envy them so much ~~~
cant wait till i'm free of my parent's clutches ><

happy valentine's everyone~~!!

his wish 4 me~~

2011-02-13T23:58:00.001+08:00

junhoe went to thailand on cny eve and come back chu 4.

during those days, think its chu 2 or 3, i found out that i can look at fishes.

i mean, in magazines and all that, i can look at them

even my dad's fishes, those big ugly looking things, i can walk close to them and not wanna scream out loud.

when i picked out a magazine and the front cover has 2 fishes, i dont shout and throw the book,

i managed to look at them long!!
i was so excited and happy i told shuyen and kaiye about this!
i'm still scared of fishes, but for me, this is a big improvement!
i'm scared, but not that terrified!!! ^^

when junhoe came back i've forgotten about telling him this, i dint even think it was worth mentioning.
but
junhoe told me tat he went to this phi phi island and he fed some fishes
he wishes that they wud stop scaring me
that was chu 2
i couldn't believe it
it was a coincidence, i dont believe his wish did came true
or at least i think i dont...

it was such a sweet and wonderful coincidence~~~*** ^^

another cny passed

2011-02-12T00:53:00.000+08:00

dint post anything this whole cny coz i was busy, tired, sick and lazy

well i dint have anything to post anyway

px and i were suppose to go out, window shopping and yamcha like tat

but cancelled coz i have to help my dad prepare for reunion dinner

kinda disappointed, i was looking forward to it...

i dont have to worry about those awkward silent moments with px

we're used to each other already~~

oh well.... maybe next time

this year cny no mood

my birthday is on chu xi ye

also no mood, juz passed like tat, not how i'd wish my 18th b'day to end up like..

vic smsed me though^^
we chat da whole day(bcoz his reply was so slow...)
and it seems like we're back to normal~~ ^^
in form6, i'm gonna find myself a fren to practise my english with evryday
then i can talk to vic again**

2011-01-28T23:42:00.001+08:00

shuyen said something to me that i feel very sensitive about right now...
it wasn't her first time and she wasn't joking.
that is what she really thinks about me right now.
i'm angry she thinks that.

that hurt.

cos i'm quite sure other ppl wud have same opinion as her.
in fact there're some things that are true that i wud agree with her if it weren't me.

she's the last straw.
i cant continue if even my own sister thinks that.

i have to change.
i must.

please stay and be permanent~~...

2011-01-27T22:00:00.001+08:00

Oh!!

no idea why, but,
my cheeks turn bright pink and my lips are red and my cheeks feel so very warm!!!

Its Back!! my Pink face is back!!^^
Its been lost since form2 and now its back!!!
oh i've missed you so much~~~~~~

*praying*
please dont go away so soon
please stay and be permanent....****

so happy to see my pink face back^^~~~

i dislike Her

2011-01-24T01:52:00.000+08:00

juz now They visited us.
it wasn't often They visit..
and it made me upset...

especially Her
She talks to me in that way and in that manner
i can feel Her challenging me
and in our house too, in front of my dad
i dun like the way She talks
i dislike even more the way She thinks
if we weren't related, i wud really hate her..

after they were gone mom came into my room
i was already in a bad mood after their little visit and i was scolding
then while walking to the kitchen with mom tailing behind me i said, 我讨厌XX
then i said even louder and my voice was already cracking, 死臭XX..
as i said that i found dad sitting on the kitchen floor
i immediately changed course to the bathroom and weep

then when i was sure no1 wud see me, i walked quickly back to my room and slept

when i woke up it was 6pm
i was sure dad overheard wat i said this afternoon
but he did not show it
he was patient and gentle with me
he knew i wept
and i felt sorry for him
for he was one of the victims here

i dislike Her
for not truly accepting my mother, even after 20 years
for talking and laughing about my mother behind our backs to other relatives
for misunderstanding my mother in every way possible
for (i was quite sure) that a part of reason bcoz of Her, my 2 aunts(her daughters) dislike my mother
for making my mother quite miserable

i dislike Her
for b4, putting my dad in the position between Her and my mom
for recently, putting my dad in this position, between his mother, his wife and his daughter
爸爸对不起。。

i dislike Her
for enjoying using us as jokes
for no matter how hard and how long we tried, there will always be a difference between the children born by her daughters and the children born by my mother
for making me see clearly, after Years of trying to get into her good books, that it was a waste of my time, my energy and my hope
for making me give up on Her

i dislike Her
for making me dislike my own grandmother
for making me feel like a jerk of a grandchild
for disliking me

cum back.... my pizza....

2011-01-21T23:19:00.002+08:00

at the petrol station juz now, when i was walking to the counter, there was this domino's pizza motor delivery guy, a malay in his early twenties i guess..
he looked at me for a while, then when i was refilling my car's petrol, he came up and started talking to me.
he said "ada promotion... sumting sumting..., biasa 12 ringgit skrg 6 ringgit shj, mau cubakah??"

ok, first of all, my malay is not good.
i dont have any malay frens or a malay environment and i seldom have to speak in malay.
even in school when i had to speak to a malay teacher i wud repeat wat i was goin to say in my mind a few times b4 i say it, and if they talk back to me i wud juz smile and nod or shake my head cos then my mind wud be blank...
and to me, this delivery guy was talking quite fast..==

second, i'm da kinda person who needs time to analyse wat ppl says to her..
sometimes it needs a few milliseconds, and sometimes it needs a few seconds.
he was waiting for my answer but analysing was still in process###...

third, it was rather sudden and i had the refilling-petrol-thing in my hands..
and i was still getting used to the fact that a stranger in a domino's uniform was talking to me, who at that time was tired and dirty, in an oversized t-shirt and short pants and messed up hair bun...

2 seconds has passed in silence and i was juz looking at him and he was looking at me, waiting.
if i dont give him an answer i'd look like an idiot.
i dint know wat to do, wat to say was outta da question, my brain was still in analysing process and i couldn't say anything.
so i juz smiled silly-ly and shook my head..
he smiled back politely and drove away.

juz a few moments after that i finished analysing wat he said...
a domino's pizza promotion and i can have one for half the ordinary price, which makes it RM6 only.........
cum back!!! yes i wanna cuba ur pizza, cum back!!!! >

T.T..... my own pizza for only 6 ringgit and i juz let him go....
regret it so much.....
if i wasn't so slow i could have their pizza for my dinner...
oh i so regret it.... T.T

Big packet prawn crackers~~~

2011-01-16T12:40:00.000+08:00

yesterday go eat dim sum. at the counter got on 1 big packet of prawn crackers.
me n my mom like to eat prawn crackers.
until we finish our dinner also nobody bought it so when my dad went to pay the bill mommy kacau him buy~~~
then i know why so long nobody go buy the cracker: that pack RM18!!
usually 1 pack only RM 3-4 only...
so dad buy and we eat. there're so much, syok~~
it's my fav brand too - nam kee.

then b4 we go home dad go buy tanglung. (he Only buy tanglung..==)
while he and yen and yang were looking in the shop, mom and i chat about gays and lesbians XD
i think that the anti-gay/les club are mostly men, i dont think that the female mind that much~~ i certainly dont~~ XP
and while we were chatting, my youngest bro, kaiye was so funny~~
he made it seem like we were torturing him XD he couldn't stand us talking bout the topic~~
he said we were weird and abnormal~~

the tanglung dad bought is so big~ dunno whether it'll look weird on the car porch anot..
he only bought tanglung, the rest dint buy, and he was thinking of not taking it down after we've put it up...
tat way every year no need to decorate already~~
haha, we all lazy ppl~~~ XD

today morning woke up and realized my vision was clear, and i haven't put my specs on...
Oh No!! i wore my transparent contacts to bed!
i've gotten used to it and forgotten to take it off...
we are suppose to wear it only 8 hours per day, i wore it 24 hours...
eyes feel kinda tired...

i hate chewing-gum!!!

2011-01-15T18:37:00.000+08:00

made applesauce yesterday, recipe from allrecipes, the name sounded delicious and it had good reviews so i did it. it wasn't very good, the taste wasn't that nice, i dunno why ppl gave full stars for this... and i accidentally cut my finger while cutting the apple..T.T

today drive to ipoh garden south, re2 to ask about the computer class. they make eveything seem so professional. the person in charge kevin introduced me to their courses. i told him i wanted to learn basics for school and work. they have 7 grades, he said that he'll put me to grade 5(syok, first time learn got 5th grade~~), said that grade 5 is more on documentation, grade 6 more on hardware.

then he told me about the fees.
for grade 5, one term(3months) is RM450. it's a 1-year course so 1 year wud be RM1800...
if i choose to pay only once, that is 1 year RM1800, i'd get 20% discount, so only have to pay RM1440, which is RM120 per month... this is expensive...
before i start i also have to pay registration fee RM180...
so now waiting for the right time to tell dad bout this. hope he allows me to take the course~~~~ haiz so expensive...and so far also...

then when i walked out and started to drive back home, i saw a ticket(saman) on my car!!!
i forgot to put parking ticket! until then i've never had to put parking tickets on my car in bercham b4 so totally forgotten bout it.... and i dunno where to pay...
good thing dad also got saman^^ so he help me pay~~

juz now walking back to the car from jusco, and suddenly one of my shoes felt slimy.. i looked, shit, i stepped on chewing gum...
i hate chewing gum!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and the ppl that spit it on the floor!!!!!!!! where're they born from??!!
wats so nice bout chewing a gum??? it's disgusting and it'll lose its flavour also! if they wan someting soft to chew on go buy sugus! cheaper also!

Ish!! it's so hard to get rid of the gum, its stuck on my shoes...!!
i kept wiping it but it wont come off, seems so hopeless...
i very sakit hati see my shoes like that.... its so dirty and disgusting...!!

Hate Hate Hate chewing gum!!!!!!!!

将久都还没弄好的。。。

2011-01-13T22:14:00.001+08:00

搬家的事，才一个星期罢了，搞得我们整家人都那么忙又累。

厨房又还没弄好，饭菜没空买也没时间或精神去煮，所以每一天的午餐晚餐都是吃外面的食物（不健康的。。。）
而且吃的时间也很迟，吃完午餐没多久就要吃晚餐了，等到全部人准备好了又要驾车去远的地方找东西吃（附近没我们想吃的食物），等到吃完了已经9点多了。。过了几个小时还那么饱，就将睡觉。
而且等到我们做完东西来已经12点半夜了。。。

我的脸，一迟睡就很快见效，第二天痘痘立刻跑出来。。
一天迟睡就有一粒痘痘。
现在额头、鼻子、嘴巴周围都有痘痘。。。我一照镜子就没有心情了。。。: (

最近我的食量也变得大了，可能因为搬家和压力的关系吧，但是消化能量没变大，所以。。。
我连自己的体重都不知道多少了，因为还没搬秤来。即使搬来了我也不去秤，暂时没心思去理这些东西。

就这样，没精神没时间，没好好地照顾自己，脸上一粒一粒的，肚子变大了，等了很久留到的指甲也剪了（因为做工不方便又弄坏它们）。。。。

现在要快快搞好新家的事，过回正常生活。。。

moved

2011-01-10T13:59:00.000+08:00

finally moved to new house. actually we're juz trying out and let ourselves get used to the new house.

its not done actually. the electrical stuff and switches are not done, furnitures not fully moved in yet, unwanted things not cleared yet. these are juz some of the big things, there're still plenty of tiny detailed stuff not done.

today's the 3rd day we stayed here. the first night was terrible coz i forgot to bring my blanket and bolster here and was shivering the whole night, couldn't sleep.

we're all quite busy these days, moving things in and out and replacing'em, especially for my bros and sis coz they still hv school and couldn't finish their homework. and now that we've moved here they have to look for buses to send them and new tuition classes.

it's also hard for us to go around coz we're not familiar with this place. i dont dare to explore this place by myself coz worried that i wont be able to come back..

so, for these few weeks or months, if we have to photostat things or do smtg muz go back to bercham, coz duno where to go here.

speaking of bercham, i miss the convenience we hav there. only a very short distance to the shops, photostat, photos, maybank, restaurants, groceries etc., they're all there.
here, there're none of this things nearby. have to go quite a long way juz to eat lunch or buy stuff.
also have a lot of frens back there, peiling, which is a walking distance frm my old house, mungching, yee ling, kaiyuan, phaikxia, chengwan, yungxin, siewmin, yeewan and chengyee(i only know these two in bercham, duno exactly where, and yeewan lives really close to me bt i dunno, paiseh~~)
here, no1.

there's smtg in particular that i really dislike bout this new house is the connection.
its山区here and the connection sucks, texts and messages keep failing to send and the internet access bcom lousy and slow and disconnect sometimes. i find the connection at its lousiest in my room==.... god......
worried that this'll affect communication with my frens and jh.... really worried... dunwan to affect....

but besides the few problems that i spoke bout, all of us love our new home, mainly because of the nice environment.

btw, does anyone know any frens that live in jelapang or anyplace near?? i really need some frens here to show me around....

first week

2011-01-09T01:53:00.000+08:00

my dad wont lemme work outside, so i work for him instead.

working for him wasn't as bad and boring as i imagined. and i get to learn more. only 2nd day and i've learnt some stuff like about cheques, banking some stuff, water pumps and their valves so i know what to do in case there's a leak, electrical controls so i know what to do when an electrical shortage occurs.
he also asked me to give shuyen and kaiye "tuition". not exactly tuition, i juz have to give them exercises for their weak subjects and supervise them and give explanations. 1 hour everyday. its actually a big improvement, they're really lazy and would never touch a book or study by themselves ==

juz now mungching sms me. fyi she's a tuition teacher now. she asked if i was interested in being a 1-day-promoter in tesco extra tomorrow, RM60.
well it's only 1 day so my parents reluctantly allowed it and i was so excited and nervous!! my first time working outside!!

...however
when i asked mungching bout the job she was not sure and said smtg bout an indoor football event, she also doesn't know the product we're promoting.
once mom n dad heard its smtg bout football they told me not to do it. they were picturing me walking and chasing around boys and men promoting wateva the hell tat thing is. ==
then mc sent a message saying might have to speak cantonese shit i can't do that, start to worry and must talk in public during the event wat?? i have trouble talking in front of my class! i can't talk in public~! and i started to hesitate.. and when i continue looking down her message, it says "...but the main thing is got 1 ppl grab this chance earlier than you... hihi! realy sory"
=.= well at least it saved me the trouble of deciding..

6B outing

2011-01-04T14:35:00.000+08:00

28.12.2010 Tuesday(i think)

that day our primary school 6B had a gathering at parade's mp. there were really few who came, the others were working or they weren't in ipoh anymore, and some of them stood us up so in the end only 7 were present. me, victor, jeremy, chengwan, sookxian, jingman and cheeming.

jeremy grew a moustache XD~~, sookxian is cute and chubby, her skin is so very nice, like a baby's, i kept poking at her face~ cheeming was quiet, jingman was even crazier than before, in a funny way.
and my primary's best fren victor, it took me a moment to recognize him, even though he looked almost the same as b4. he's tall and slim, became good looking. he had a slang that was hard to keep up with, even jeremy said so. and as soon as i heard him speak i juz turned away... i knew i couldn't talk or hold a conversation with him...

well it wasn't as awkward as i imagined it would be, thx to jeremy, sookxian and especially jingman, they're the talkative ones. we ate at mp, first time i ate there~ then we were juz chatting. well at least the others were, i dint know wat to say, so i just eat eat eat.

jingman and sookxian

chengwan, victor and cheeming

victor and cheeming

sookxian. vic's looking this way~

b4 we go back we took photos, which was quite funny~~XD though i still din get them yet... hmm.. have to ask chengwan bout that.

it was enjoyable, but victor and i dint talk at all. which i regret a lot....
i actually came to this gathering juz to meet him. really regret.
communication was only one of the prob. i dint know wat to say to him, and i think he figured that out.
he dint too.

bought the books

2011-01-02T21:28:00.000+08:00

today finally bought the form6 revision books, i was annoyed at wasting my december doing nothing, now that i've bought the books hopefully i'll put my holidays to good use~~

leow choon hui saw me in jusco today, he walked past me but i dint see him. paiseh~

was tidying up the books in the house today and found these 3 books: kangaroos, seals and ducklings. dad bought them when i was only a few years old, and i think that i've never read them... i wasn't quite fascinated with wildlife or encyclopedia stuff, i was more into fairytales like cinderella~^^

read through them. i think i've learnt a bit more bout kangaroos, seals and ducklings, haha~

last day of 2010

2011-01-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

31.12.2010

the last day of the year, my whole family used that as an excuse and went to penang. i'm alone at home, which i very much prefer.

phaikxia came in the evening and both of us walked to peiling's house. it wasn't really that dark but she wouldn't walk any further unless we had an umbrella as a weapon with us, haha~~ so we took mine.

at peiling's house i dont even feel uncomfortable anymore. her family are very friendly and nice and i kinda got used to them even though i've only met them a few times. phaikxia's kinda uneasy and scared around the baby~ haha~~XD

then we went jusco eat icecream. i used to think that baskin robbin's was really nice but not now. theirs wasn't really that tasty. the cream was too thick and the taste of the ingredients wasn't enough. it melts quickly too. we met with kyeyuin and walked to oldtown kopitiam.

there were really little ppl at da kopitiam so after jingwen came we went to yeolde english. there we juz chat and chat and mung ching came along with her cousin. yeeling fell sick and couldn't make it, cck was dealing with "private stuff", the others were either working or their parents wont let them out too late, so it was juz us, 6 girls + jing wen, haha~~

lol, when mungching and her cousin went to the washroom phaikxia added a few touches to their drink. she added her juice, my honey, peiling's juice, kyeyuin's also i think, and she add jingwen's sour plum and a l'il bit chilli sauce! when mc and her cousin came back and drank it they dint notice anything! not even the floating sour plum~! hahaha~~!

peiling cut her hair, i think it looks nicer~

phaikxia looks funny~

jingwen~

mungching's cousin, quite pretty~

then 10 minutes before 12, the restaurant gave each table some crackers and whistles and clappers. the time wasn't set properly but what the heck, we were already pulling our crackers and blowing our whistles.

goodbye 2010~~

Can someone teach me how to use??

2010-12-31T15:59:00.000+08:00

dad bought a hair styling device for me. its diameter is smaller than my liking, but i'm still pleased with it~~

tried doing my hair juz now, hehe, its my First time, so i was really juz experimenting with it..

i couldn't really figure how it works, when i tried to curl it in it'd get stuck, and i'd panic a bit coz it was turned on and i dint wanna burn my hair. and when i tried to curl some of the longer hair i find that i couldn't finish them, and i wondered how the long hair beauties finish curling the whole length of their long hair...hmm.... i also find it quite hard to do the hair behind.

as for the end results, some of my hair came out too curly, some not curly at all, some half-curly-half-straight... it wasn't balanced at all and was messy.

now, 2 hours after, my hair has loosened, the curls have loosened and some have straightened back, especially the hair behind.

haha, i looked at the mirror and i could imagine mung ching saying “ 不好看的，都不卷了，你乱乱来的”, or cheng wan, who has experience in this kinda stuff, saying “你弄到很奇怪阿，卷跟没卷没什么分别的，好像睡醒来的头发这样”~~~haha~~

but somehow, i kinda like it. ^^

tiny cake shelf

2010-12-28T21:46:00.001+08:00

shuyen bought these in bangkok, she always liked cute decorative things~~

bangkok 2nd and 3rd day

2010-12-28T21:36:00.000+08:00

these 2 days go shopping!!

after breakfast we go Chatuchak, tat place is very hot and my skin's been burned brown by the hot sun, but the things there are so Cheap!! and there're so many sections to walk around, can get lost easily.

then we go MBK, its a shopping mall, things there are quite cheap also, well at least their handbags are~ or maybe its bcoz it x'mas.. and there're varieties of all sorts. these 2 days bought 4 handbags!! and some accessories~~ haha!^^
dint buy any clothes or shoes. i imagined the clothes wudn't look nice on me so dint look, as for the shoes, they have all sorts and they're very pretty and their heels are very high, back in m'sia its very expensive to buy high heels and its not even as high as the ones here, but when i try the heels on i couldn't feel the ground!! its so hard to walk and so easy to trip! plus my legs are worn out by walking, so dint look at the shoes.

3rd day morning taxi left me n shuyen n my aunt at jj mall, we had to find our way to chatuchak section 5 to meet with the others. and along our way we had to cross a shop to walk out the street. the shop sells fishes and aquarium stuff..., even though it was only a short distance i was so scared... we haven't even walk halfway when i saw 2 DEAD GOLDISHES lying on the floor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and we're suppose to walk across them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg omg omg omg omg omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i bounced back and wanted to cry and hold shuyen so she wouldn't leave me alone there. WHY THE HELL DID THEY THROW THEIR DEAD GOLDFISHES ON THE FLOOR?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
shuyen and i looked for another way to go out, but the next shop also sell fish! and the next ! and the next! omg the whole corridor was selling fishes!!!!!! i wanna cry already!! after seeing those dead fish i couldn't walk across any of the shops!!! then shuyen ask me to hold her shoulder and close my eyes, she'd guide me out. i dint close them instead i looked at the ground.... it was so scary... shuyen said my hands were trembling...

i never never never wanna go through that again. i have goosebumps thinking bout it... omg it was so goddamn scary............

Bangkok 1st day

2010-12-28T21:35:00.000+08:00

dad n i are back to normal.

all of us at the airport

when flying and landing in airasia plane i feel so dizzy and tummy feel bad... not a good feeling. i hate going on planes, they shud invent a transporter so we needn't have to board anymore aeroplanes.
we checked in the hotel Furama Exclusive. after checking in and putting our luggages, we went to a mall, decorated quite prettily. we went to 7th floor to eat first. there were no thai food served there so we we took the restaurant that served thai-japanese food, - not nice to eat ==...

the lady at the hotel, so pretty~~

then we went shopping, me n mom n my aunt, kaiye and shu yen went with dad, they aren't really fans of shopping. i dint see anything that interested me. it was that kinda mall where all da expensive labels gather, giordano, g2000 etc. their prices and goods sold dint suit me so only mom n aunt shopped today.

however, i did try out some dresses, you know, da kinda dresses u wear to a dinner or something formal. umm... i look fat in all of them ==... but i did find out that for "puffy" ppl like me, a long dress down to da feet is better than a short one, it hides all da fat XD~~
and i Hate my arms!!! those BIG and FLABBY arms! i look like those middle-age women who gave birth to a lot of kids ><

then we ate some icecream. the way they decorate their icecreams are so cute!! we ate Gelate's.

yummy~~

at about 10pm my aunt took me to a thai-europian restaurant to eat dinner. we had chicken-veggie noodles and tom yam soup.

爸爸跟我为工作摩擦

2010-12-23T21:28:00.001+08:00

我跟爸爸关系又摩擦了，为了我想找工作的事。。。

现在考完试有长假，我想找个工作做，我要得到那经验，证明我跟其他人一样可以做工、可以受苦、可以被骂；证明我不是全部人想的那么没用、那么大小姐。
我不要身边的朋友再认为我是那种不用做工，可以尽情享乐，伸手就可以有钱用的人，整天受爸爸照顾的女儿。
我也不想长大读完书后因自己没工作经验而感到紧张、害怕。

但是几次跟爸爸提起这件事，他都是给一样的反应：

他不要我做工，他说我现在做工也学不到东西的。
他要我用这些时间来上英文课，考英文，准备万一在本地大学得不到想要的科目可以到外国去读。他也要我用这时间准备ｆｏｒｍ６的课程，要我比其他人更快跟上ｆｏｒｍ６课程。他说以前ｍｅｔｈｏｄｉｓｔｈｉｇｈｓｃｈｏｏｌ有预早给ｌｏｗｅｒ６补习班，要我进那补习班，不然就自己先买书读。
他说我现在17岁没人要请的，说我跟我朋友都在浪费时间。然后从这边说到我会分心，会有外面的男人来ｋａｃａｕ我、玩我等等，到时开课了我也没心上。。。给我很长的训诫。

结果每次都是我们两个不开心地走开。。。。

刚才他又不开心地走掉，明天我们一家人还要一起到泰国去游玩。。。会影响我们的心情。。。

恭喜你！！

2010-12-22T22:10:00.001+08:00

俊豪今天下午跟我说他做了篮球队团长，真的没想到叻，很替他开心～ ^^

恭喜你啊～～～

祝你做个很成功的团长，赢很多场比赛回来～～！！

he woke up

2010-12-21T22:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday, look at the clock, 1.00am, i cant sleep, i think i remembered texting jun hoe..

look at the clock, 2.30am, i texted jun hoe "i can't sleep", then i finished reading jodi picoult's book, the tenth circle.

it was 3.30 am by then, text him again, "goin to try sleep now". and i rolled on bed, not feeling the least tired.
i wished he was awake with me..

4.30am, i texted him, "still can't sleep", then lied on bed.

and to my surprise my phone vibrated.

i looked, it was jun hoe. he replied "oh dear..."

i tot i disturbed his sleep but he say the phone dint make him wake up, he woke himself.

i was so glad he woke up.

he said he woke up for me~~*

he told me to drink some milk, i drank water instead. then we talked a little.

i find myself cherishing the moment, we haven't done this in a long time...

after we chat and said goodnight, i find that i could sleep quite easily~

Did a simple dish

2010-12-18T16:14:00.000+08:00

juz me n kai yang at home, waiting for time to pass by.
tot i'd make something to eat so i took out some spaghetti.
i'm not good at cooking but the end results turn out quite okay.
it was juz simple stir-fry spaghetti with onions, spinach and chicken slices. it really was simple so i guess there was no room for failure.
i'm quite happy with it coz it wasn't underseasoned and quite nice to eat. even kai yang cant say anything bad bout it.

hmm.. it occurred to me that i've forgotten to take a photo of it only after i've finished it... too bad, wanted to share it, it Really was simple...

i can't talk to vic..

2010-12-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

victor called me juz now, to ask me whether i was free on the 27 or 28, for da gathering.
he talked too fast and i couldn't keep up and my mind was blank and i feel like my mind was running too slow! then he ask me to confirm by wed and i was like, "ok, bye" - hang up.

i wanted to end it cos i was like brain-jam, and i feel embarassed with myself

omg, i've lost it, i can't make conversation with vic like this, i haven't spoke in english for a long time, there's no1 for me to speak and practice with. vinno's gone, my tongue's stuck.
studying in a chinese school, not only does your english not improve, it actually goes backwards.

and whenever i see students from an english school like anderson or st michael, i hear them talk loud and fast and i know i couldn't talk to them. i just wont be able to keep up or think of the words. they are really good... i suck.

really hope i find a fren who could speak and practice with me, coz i dunwan this to continue..

english suddenly seems such a difficult thing...

rest well Scooby...

2010-12-16T23:22:00.001+08:00

juz got the news that scooby died...

scooby's one of junhoe's many dogs, he's black and small and very cute, i've only met him once. that was when jh took me to his dad's shop, scooby was friendly and cute, although his body was shaven by jh's bro coz of ticks that time, he was still cute.

i like him. i wanted to see him again..

jun hoe saw scooby got hit by a car, he's very sad now... i dunno how to console him.. poor scooby...

rest well scooby...

=.=

2010-12-16T23:13:00.001+08:00

juz now ching yaw mun sms me, said he saw someone in jusco that looked just like me. when i say it wasn't me, he replied:

"i thought so, she looked taller and thinner". =.=..

well that sucked... those two criterias are wat i need.

做任何事前要吃早餐！

2010-12-16T14:34:00.000+08:00

其实我早餐只是一片面包和一杯牛奶~

昨天没吃早餐就搬了17＋1本化学参考书，从小学停车场走到makmal am那边，结果整个早上和中午手振，什么都不能做... ...

到了晚上两只手就开始酸痛了，一直到今天... ><

教训：早上要搬一大堆重书前，一定要吃早餐！！

boring person

2010-12-15T23:08:00.001+08:00

my relatives has been asking me a few times about my plans after my big exam, and i dont have any... well, there were plans bout watching movies and playing badminton and going shopping and looking for a job, but that's not da answer they want, they want to hear exciting and seemingly fun plans like going to another state, genting or watever to play, or something else.

when i said i have no plans, juz staying at home, they were like “哇很乖哦”，“就呆在家巴了啊？”etc. and i was so ashamed.

after da exam and staying at home, it felt weird.. and i hate that i seem such a boring person... but i really had no mood, i'm so damn tired these few days, sleep very late and wake up early to fetch brother to school, after that i can't sleep, my dark circles are becoming very obvious.. and so i have no mood or energy to play, and the plans to pangkor and penang were cancelled cos of some probs..

its da same when i finished pmr and get da results, i juz went straght back home, it was so boring... and i feel ashamed because of this, ashamed that me n my frens are such boring ppl, and i feel guilty of being ashamed of them....

went cameron with jh

2010-12-15T14:15:00.000+08:00

last sunday went cameron highlands with jh~~
so happy although a little tired..~~

woke up early in da morning and then he drove me there, we went to all da pasars and bought a lot of junk food to eat^^ well at least i ate a lot...

i dint take note of where we'd stop... hmm.. da first stop was beside a chocolate strawberry factory, we stopped there for breakfast. while we were ordering, his cousin popped out from behind and was looking at me... then we went to 3 or 4 pasar. it was cool there and i love da whether and temp there, so much better than hot ipoh==.. we also went to a bee's farm(i think that's da name...) and a strawberry garden.
dint take any photos, coz i'm not a fan of taking pictures...

when he was driving me back home, i stuck my head out of da window, haha, i've never done that b4, it was quite fun, especially with the cool wind blowing right at you~
got real tired after that and slept in da car..

we had fun that day~**

after sj paper see harry potter

2010-12-09T00:42:00.000+08:00

remember after the spm sj paper, junhoe + me + phaikxia + cck go to see harry potter, deathly hallows.
junhoe took sooo long to cum to school to fetch us there, was teaching his bro studies, px getting grumpy, coz she very hungry de.

when we reached jusco, px said smtg to me and hit me, and junhoe complained and she gave that expression. XD! she was funny! then jh n i go first, she wait for cck, cck putting his things in locker, i think...

harry potter was ok, was a bit bored, no action. Omg hermione granger/emma watson is a Beauty!! she's so pretty and beautiful! throughout the movie i kept waiting for them to show her face, such a lovely face~~ soooo beautiful!!

jh sat beside me and we were holding hands but it really wasn't comfortable with the chair handle btween us..
he kissed my knuckles~~
2 and a half hours, px dint get the whole movie XD!! she dint read the books and dint follow the movies b4 this, and cck was smsing throughout the movie. then he wanna go to the washroom, and he dint even know where but he came back in less than a minute..0.0.. wow... he sure settled that quick..

btw, cck tat day wore glasses, first time i see, he looked nice in glasses. wanna tell him tat, next time wear glasses more often~~

then px n i went window-shopping, we went into da padini store, took a look at a jacket's price, RM170++, and walked out. then go snj. then go ground floor tat store forgot da name, but its things not bad, i'm going back there next time.

was a bit boring but i had fun tat day, really wanna take a photo of us 4, for memory's sake, but cannot find cck, he went to play snooker..=.=

studies, wanna juz leave you behind...

2010-11-19T15:34:00.000+08:00

omg wat the hell is wrong with me??!
juz a few days till spm and i'm still fooling around...
takde mood nak baca la....

4 days dint touch books already><

da more i make myself touch a book da more i think tat spm is not important in my life..==

books, studies, books... they are important i know, but i hate that everyone is making such a big deal outta them, and da more i think of it, the more i've come to realise how much i've given up for these.. Studies....

i 've stopped badminton practice, swimming sessions, painting lessons, piano lessons when i was still young, i wanna continue them, coz i've seen frens and classmates all around me who lost to me at these kinda things. i surpassed them even though i had only 1-2years lessons. i wanna continue, and be better, coz i know i can. i also wanna learn baking and cooking, dancing etc.

but if i had to continue them all, my studies will get left behind.

"a promising future". that's what studies promised us, or so they say... this is da Only reason i haven't quit my studies. i cant wait to leave spm and school behind, cant wait to continue what i've stopped,cant wait to learn new things...

and i'd have to learn all of them in 6 months, coz then there'd be form 6 again...

试着放开占据心

2010-11-19T14:36:00.000+08:00

发觉到自己是一个放不开的人，不太对，应该是很有占据心的人。
曾经算是属于自己的东西，突然飞到别人身旁，而且不是自己允许的，都很放不开。。。

还记得初中的时候，傻强追我，而我根本都对他没什么感觉。他追闲了，过后忘了发生什么事，好象是他追别的女生还是什么，但他还时常找我，我知道了竟然在他和我ｇｉｒｌｇｕｉｄｅ的ｓｅｎｉｏｒ面前哭！！傻强给我搞傻了，以为我喜欢他，哈哈！但我自己也不懂在哭什么，现在想到觉得很傻～ＸＰ

不是对所有的东西都是将，一些罢了。到现在还有，正在努力放掉这心理病。

Keropok Lekor

2010-11-13T13:23:00.000+08:00

keropok lekor, one of my fav snacks in malaysia^^
its fried and not very good for your health but i simply love it, recently i made a habit of buying a few everyday to eat on the bus, i got sore throat and a few times my tongue went numb but i still kept eating.
i like the keropok lekors made by the malays, theirs are much tastier i think.

dad bought these for me, he knows how much i like them.

Egyptian gods

2010-11-13T13:12:00.000+08:00

my parents are going egypt this coming holidays, and i looked up the web to find more bout da egyptian gods, i've always been interested since i've seen movies and heard of their names.

it was interesting, there's a story connecting them, i've learnt bout ra, isis, seth, horus, osiris, thoth, nut, geb and da other gods i've forgotten. i think tat they shud make more movies tat include this kinda beliefs and culture, so tat we'd be interested and learn more, and it sometimes help our history.
i checked out using this link: gwydir.demon.co.uk/jo/egypt/index.htm

when i have time, i might check out the greece gods.

大姑姑的butter cookies

2010-11-13T12:58:00.000+08:00

我大姑姑做蛋糕饼干都很好吃，向她拿了她butter cookies的recipe，不过做了一点都比不上她的……
姑姑做的可以让我弟弟自己一个人吃整桶，butter味很够很香，texture也很松，越吃越爱吃，我也超爱^^
弟弟吃了我的只是摇摇头，说不好吃……T.T

这是我自己做的，做到不够好。

姑姑butter cookies ingredients:

250g butter

225g plain flour

200g corn flour

1 egg yolk

115g icing sugar

1/4tsp vanilla essence

cherry(chopped)

Omg!! Blog restored!!!

2010-11-06T23:37:00.000+08:00

Omg!! Oh THANK GOD!!!

Accidentally deleted my blog on mistake!
i have 2 blogs, and i wanted to delete the other one and deleted this one by mistake...
thank god we're able to restore it within 90 days b4 it permanently disappears!
go dashboard>>show all tab, click it, can Undelete it ^^!! so happy and relieved!!!

i was scolding loudly at jun hoe juz now, and for no reason, make it seem like he had everything to do with this, juz wanna take out my anger and frustration and disbelieve, juz coz of this...
i'm sorry....

化妆有点进步，全部人却说不好看....

2010-11-06T16:15:00.000+08:00

我觉得这次化妆有进步，给妹妹看她却说不好看，妈妈看了也将讲，叫我不要化了....
很灰心，又不懂要不要信她们...
想拍照片给俊豪问他意见，拍了几张显得自己很丑... 又不懂是化到丑还是手机的问题...
!!!!到底要信谁??! 自己还是她们?? 两方面的眼光其实都不是很好的.....
很讨厌... !!

不能有迷人的大眼妆...T.T

2010-11-03T17:52:00.000+08:00

我眼睛不好，近视深闪光更深，所以不能带有颜色的隐形眼镜，也就是说不能带那些放大眼睛的contacts了...

起初对化妆将有兴趣是因为想要变到象那些日本和韩国的女子将，大眼的装扮迷死人了~~

现在知道自己不能象她们将带con，有迷人的大眼，真的有失落感...

很想象她们有大眼...... 好美.....

觉得我没用也好心不要在我面前讲啦

2010-11-03T16:59:00.000+08:00

爸爸因为比较有钱，我们家里有工人，很多很多人对我的印象是“一个什么都不会做的大小姐”。

考完试后我打算找工作做，跟了几个人讲，全部都给我同样的反应：妈妈笑我，很多朋友也看死我，说我不能的，连男朋友也这么觉得。我在他们眼里真的是很没用。
他们很伤我。

我跟px埋怨... 其实她也是这么想我的，只是没讲出来。
我不觉得他们（没工作经验的朋友）比我好很多，我跟他们一样罢了，但他们就是将想我，很讨厌他们...

毕业典礼

2010-10-30T17:35:00.000+08:00

毕业典礼过得很开心啊！那是我第一次觉得自己美得能和其他美女比较，哈哈！px也将觉得~~

感觉很象灰姑娘，只是灰姑娘可以到12点，我们到10点而已。

那天感觉很象公主哦~~！！哈哈！

很感谢放大的contact lens和假睫毛，让我小小的眼睛看起来很大~~ 还有妈咪的christian dior lipgloss~~

给警察抓，吓到我了... T.T

2010-10-24T14:09:00.001+08:00

昨天俊豪载了他家人去婆婆家后就载我到我家那排的最后一间屋子隔壁，我们停车谈天。
毕竟我们几个月才能见对方一面，不想那么快回家。
我们在那边瞒久下，突然有一辆车停在我们旁边，然后两位警察下车，他们叫我们死火，拿出我们ic，过后叫我们下车，他们问我们几个问题，多数是俊豪和他们讲话。
我很怕他们会找我父母或者是通知学校。。。
过后他们叫我上车，和俊豪讲话。

最后放走我们了，俊豪带我绕一圈，然后我哭了，他安慰我。。。

回到家弟弟和表第看不出我哭，他们以为我伤风，我煮了一包快熟面来吃心情才安定下来。

见了他家人...!

2010-10-24T12:52:00.001+08:00

昨天俊豪带我去见他家人，事前什么也没跟我说，只是叫我穿美点！吓死我啦！！！都没给我心理准备！
我一直不肯去见，还打了他很多垂，但最后到了傍晚也答应了。
他家人很友善叻~ 他姐姐很美下，他说她很会打扮的，弟弟很好笑，爸爸很可爱，妈妈也很好。他知道我很紧张，一直在我旁边不走。
最后他载他家人去婆婆家后就送我回家。

（接下来还有... 那个更吓我... T.T...)

毕业典礼买的鞋

2010-10-23T12:31:00.000+08:00

这是在queensbay mall, Vincci买的鞋~
扣了20%后是RM70++
谢谢满晴帮我选啊~! 是我自己的话我选不到那么美的~~

not very happy with my dress...

2010-10-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

i'm not really very happy with my dress i picked for grad night, bcoz its a loose dress..
every student in the school has the impression tat i'm da kind tat always wear loose dresses and shirts, the fat kind..
i admit i'm fat, but for one night i wanted the ppl in the school to see tat i have shape, i dun wanna hide my body shape. but this dress is a loose dress, it doesn't have or show shape, juz a loose straight line, haiz...
and when i wear it i think tat i look fatter...

i bought this dress in da first place coz its hard to find a dress tat suits me, and its a limited dress and its da last one, i dint know if i cud find another dress... plus mung ching said it look nice and its worth it, she said i wont regret, and jun hoe said i look very nice in it and he wants me to buy it. (of course, when they were seeing it in da boutique, the light was dim and yellowish, anything i wore wud have looked nice..)

well, i dun think i cud do much bout it now, it does cost a lot... really really hope i'd look as pretty tat night as i'd wish, really really hope i can catch some attention~~~~
oh please please dress, make me look pretty that night~~~~~

习惯写日记了

2010-10-16T18:45:00.000+08:00

最近很少在blog写东西了，因为有写日记的习惯了~~

第一本年头用完，第二本刚用完，好快~

现在开始用第三本。

合回了~~! ^^

2010-10-16T18:39:00.000+08:00

想和朋友们分享:
我和俊豪在这六月已经合回了! ^^
好开心~~

后悔没去band concert

2010-05-17T13:32:00.000+08:00

好后悔没去前天ｂａｎｄ的ｃｏｎｃｅｒｔ啊～～～
爸爸和凯扬去回来说很ｈｉｇｈ，很好玩，我和淑彦没去很可惜。
好久没去ｃｏｎｃｅｒｔ了，这次不去也是因为我笨＝＝

Gotong-royong

2010-05-15T19:01:00.000+08:00

today gotong-royong, it wasn't as dull and horrible as i expected, at least i dint get scolded by ms woo or something like that.

lok fei was quite nice to me now considering the fact we hated each other about almost 2 weeks before this.
3 of the afternoon supervisors i appointed to come to the gotong-royong dint come, only 1 did and he was sulking the whole time, the other one, wong kai wing dint come but he was nice to volunteer in the first place, i'm sure he dint come coz i couldn't look for him and he dint get anymore news bout the g-r, i like him, he's nice. the last one, looi wei lin, i dun like him.

ms woo spoke little to me, i'm fine with that, though disturbed about the thought that she might actually dislike me. teacher yvonne also dint speak to me, i like her, but i wonder if ms woo complains about me to her before, i hope not, she's a fun teacher, i like her class.

crc and the language room was quite clean so it dint take long for us to finish cleaning, we had free fried meehoon, it was nice, but it got cool... i also get to have a pizza coz my dad dint want it. px also came today but i dint spend much time with her coz i have to follow dad home by the time she was finished.

it was quite fun today.

ignoring a person

2010-05-08T17:18:00.000+08:00

Have you ever ignored a person or refuse to look at him or speak to him and if ppl asks you, not even you know why you did it??

there's this guy, i like him(tat kinda fren like), he's fun and cute. and when i'm the mood i sometimes flirt with him, through sms of course.

a few days before after i know he has a girlfren, i stopped talking to him, dint even look at him. The thing was, i wasn't angry or jealous or heart-broken or anything. in fact, even after knowing he has a gf, i was quite fine. there was this weird feeling, i dunno wat it is, but i'm fine.

so for 3 or 4 days i dint look at him, dint talk to him. He noticed it, and he knows i'm acting this way after i knew of his gf, he also avoided looking at me, but he did try to speak to me. i dint give him much of any response.

the 3rd day i stayed back to wait for my bro i was in da canteen, he and 2 of his frens came down to have lunch, his frens speak to me first and then he did, i had to speak back, else his frens'll know somethings up. i dint wan anyone to know. so they joked and talked, they were funny, he was funny, it was hard to ignore him then, so i dint, i was having fun anyway.

i'm sure he thinks i'm jealous or watever, he might think tat i like him, but i'm not jealous nor heart-broken, so does tat mean i dun like him?? i just cant bring myself to speak with him, i feel so stupid around him, but i dun feel anything for him. This is weird.

Y teens wun speak probs to adults

2010-04-18T22:50:00.000+08:00

when you grow up, you forget....how crucially important it is for someone to understand and admire you, accept you...when you-re sixteen or seventeen...
...vital as oxygen...
...forgotten how painful it is at that time.

有人误会我

2010-03-12T15:18:00.000+08:00

感觉好像有一个人误会了我。。。

我不认识他，他不认识我，自从上几次不小心对望后我觉得他以为我喜欢他。。。

现在我很努力地不要去看他在的地方

唉，希望他不要再误会了。。。

肉肉？？！=.=

2010-03-12T14:14:00.000+08:00

考完试了老师也没教书，我们一班女生就谈天咯，不懂讲什么讲到男生的身材，我喜欢有肌肉的男生，她们的话题就一直围绕着我咯，说什么我变了、不乖了，傻的，我喜欢有肌肉的男生很坏很变态咩？？

过后她们就说蔡一定有的，好心啦.... 人家去年底才分手做么要提起他哦？？不过他是有一点的，他身材蛮不错... 我喜欢.. XP ，她们在感情方面真的很insensitive的啦！幸好我跟他还保持朋友关系。

然后她们还讲了很多废的东西，叫我去gym找男朋友等等。她们还给了肌肉男一个外号——肉肉 =.=!!!! 很恶心啊！！她们思想有问题的啦，听起来像胖人多过像muscular的人...

En Oh 年轻作弄 Ah Gua

2010-03-12T13:50:00.000+08:00

哇最近mr oh心情很好哦，上chemistry又不骂人又跟我们开玩笑。

今天两节chemistry都没上课，他跟我们说他小时候的故事，我给他炸到，他说年轻的时候他跟朋友去作弄ah gua =.=
过后叫我们不要学他.....

没有想到=.=

My Sister's Keeper pg265

2010-02-16T17:07:00.000+08:00

   "Fire and hope are connected, just so you know. The way the greeks told it, Zeus put Prometheus and Epimetheus in charge of creating life on earth. Epimetheus made the animals, giving out bonuses like swiftness and strength and fur and wings. By the time Prometheus made man, all the best qualities had been given out. He settled for making them walk upright, and he gave them fire.

   Zeus, pissed off, took it away. But Prometheus saw his pride and joy shivering and unable to cook. He lit a torch from the sun and brought it to man again. To punish Prometheus, Zeus had him chained to a rock, where an eagle fed on his liver. To punish man, Zeus created the first woman-Pandora-and gave her a gift, a box she was forbidden to open.

   Pandora's curiosity got the best of her, and one day she opened that box. Out came plagues and misery and mischief. She managed to shut the lid tight before hope escaped. It's the only weapon we have left to fight the others."

pg265, My Sister's Keeper, author Jodi Picoult.

年初二晚上

2010-02-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

昨天我很心闷，打电话跟嘉诚谈天，怎知他在发我脾气，因为他没送到我饼干和新年和情人节卡片然后我好象没感觉将... 其实我是不想让他误会以为我也对他有同感罢了。

我打电话给嘉诚，但是他不肯说话，那我说咯，但是我不会讲话，他说我的话题很无聊，我也不懂要讲什么，他又一直催我，我突然想到CRC和ms woo和我的朋友和jh，感到压力很大，他说我再不讲话他就挂电话了，我要跟他讲—我不懂要讲什么—的时候才发觉到我流泪了...

我究竟是不是做错了很多选择，搞到现在那么多事情烦？

My Sister's Keeper pg189

2010-02-15T22:02:00.000+08:00

"Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it's not because they enjoy solitude. It's because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them."

pg189, My Sister's Keeper, author Jodi Picoult.

My Sister's Keeper pg190

2010-02-15T21:58:00.000+08:00

"i wondered what happened when you offered yourself to someone, and they opened you, only to discover you were not the gift they expected and they had to smile and nod and say thank you all the same."

pg190, My Sister's Keeper, author Jodi Picoult.

新年前一天

2010-02-13T16:21:00.000+08:00

吓~~嘉诚说要给我新年卡还有情人节卡~~~ 我都不知道他还喜欢我~
他又弄饼给我吃又做卡给我，突然间觉得很对不起他将...

yer... 星期五（假期前一天）还以为很好玩的，怎知去学校闷到半命啊！！
很多人都去那个board比赛，阿谢也没来陪我，最后看到他的时候他在陪爱棋
不好玩的，去年好玩点，今年又闲又闷又热....

那些表演我也看不到啊，舞狮、武术我都没看到，因为没地方站，我站在角落，前面就是一盆花，我只看到那盆花=.=

阿谢，不要追我啊～～

2010-02-07T16:49:00.000+08:00

最近有种感觉...感觉到好象阿谢喜欢我将，不懂是不是真的～～

我还是假装什么都不知道～～如果他真的追我的话那就糟糕了，他将可爱，都不懂要怎样拒绝他才好。

阿谢真的好可爱，有点傻傻呆呆的，学校将多人我最爱弄他了～～如果他真的追我的话我就不能再弄他了... 不要啊，阿谢，不要追我啊，我还想继续弄你还有找你玩啊～～

可爱可爱的阿谢～～